I ask myself everyday if I have the strength to do this.
I hate the person I’ve become…so unrecognizable to myself, not to mention everyone else.
I never used to think of myself as a selfish person but now I can’t tell where my selflessness ends and my self-preservation begins.
I keep thinking about that boy from high school. I’ve never felt so close to someone I barely knew. I think it’s just the timing of this whole thing. He must have been so scared, but I understand why he would have been so calm and organised the way he was in the end.
I just wish I could be resolute with either way at this point.