something bad happened today.

despite my efforts to avoid it.

i feel like Job a lot these days.

two steps forward, ten steps back.

i don’t know who i am here,

and i don’t know how i got here

but I’m thankful i’m not alone.


there are so many people who have such little understanding of just how sick i am and still they support me, and it hurts so much every time i let them down. i just want to do right by them and by me. i don’t even know how you tell relative strangers how you wouldn’t be alive if not for them.